Death was on my mind............................... all the time!
I eventually went back to work and tried to get on with life!! My life! My lost life!!
I start to make some contacts via the internet, i made some penpals who were muslim, some were reverts and some were just keen on helping me learn more about Islam..
I got into contact with a lovely group of ladies, who ran a dawah (propagating Islam) group, for those interested in Islam.. They had fortnightly gatherings and sent me many books and some great links to useful site... but i still didnt have the courage to attend and make some Muslim friends, i felt embarrassed, i looked so aussie - tall, skinny and blonde lol.. i couldnt look more aussie if i wanted too haha...
(Remember: i didnt have any Muslim friends, and no one knew about what i was doing, except my friend ruby)
Eventually i had coffee with one of the sisters, she was so incredibly kind, so soft and friendly... We just talked about various topics, about her life, my life, family, religion... She was just so non-judgemental.. Mashallah! She really put my heart at ease, it felt great to finally talk to someone about how i was feeling, what i was wondering and my complicated life situation.. She was also a revert so she had so much understanding for what i was going through..
And things were left at that, we kept in contact and i kept falling more in love with Islam, With Allah and With Mohammed pbuh....
As i look back on my life i can see how so many little things, were all leading me in one direction. Everything that happened to me, physically, emotional, mentally it all drew me closer to Allah...
Alhumdiullah, Alhumduillah, Alhumduillah
Allah works in mysterious ways!!
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